Trust Issues

adam and eve

Genesis 3:6-10

When the woman saw that the fruit of the tree was good for food and pleasing to the eye, and also desirable for gaining wisdom, she took some and ate it. She also gave some to her husband, who was with her, and he ate it. Then the eyes of both of them were opened, and they realized they were naked; so they sewed fig leaves together and made coverings for themselves.  Then the man and his wife heard the sound of the Lord God as he was walking in the garden in the cool of the day, and they hid from the Lord God among the trees of the garden. But the Lord God called to the man, “Where are you?”  10 He answered, “I heard you in the garden, and I was afraid because I was naked; so I hid. 11 And he said, “Who told you that you were naked? Have you eaten from the tree that I commanded you not to eat from?”

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I know what you’re thinking…Adam and Eve…naked.  We’ve all heard this story before.  Why do we need to know about how they sinned one more time.  Yeah, that’s probably true, everybody knows that they messed up and then got kicked out of the garden, yada, yada, ya…They weren’t smart, they were manipulated by the serpent, yada, yada, ya…Heard the story a million times.  We really have…But I didn’t come for that today.  I wanted to talk to everyone about the root of our issues.  Our trust issues.

If you take this scripture and break it down a bit, you can probably see your own issues with trust all through this.  Questions come to mind, like:  Why don’t people tell the truth?  Why weren’t they just honest when they asked?  And when I mean honest, I mean fully honest…When God asked Adam, where he was, He covered up and hid…He placed fig leaves on himself and Eve because He had eaten from the tree of knowledge.  He knew that he didn’t have any clothes on.  More importantly he knew that he had gone against the very thing that God told him not to do.  He had shunned his responsibility to his Creator.  Why is that a big deal?  So glad you asked…It’s a big deal because if someone created you, they’ve already seen what you got, so why all of the sudden are you ashamed and feel the need to lie or say otherwise (as if they don’t already know)?  There, my friends lies the question…

Insecurity…it is defined as the uncertainty or anxiety about oneself; lack of confidence.  It is also defined as the state of being open to danger or threat; or a lack of protection.   Maybe, just maybe, that’s what Adam and Eve felt when they ate of the fruit:  Unprotected.  Vulnerable.  That’s unfortunate, because it begs the question:  Why would a God who created you to shine, leave you out there without protection?  Doesn’t make sense right?  That’s how we think though.  Our insecurity in different situations most likely come from the fear of being exposed.  Unprotected.  It happens I guess, but that’s probably some of the reason why we get into our various life situations.  We at some point stopped trusting that God would keep us.  That He would guide us through the storm.  That we could do anything as long as He was with us.  And make no mistake, He’s always with us.

Too deep for you…

Let me bring it to something so tangible.  Have you ever been in a situation with your spouse or significant other where you had something you needed to tell them?  Something you messed up on, or weren’t quite comfortable with?  And when faced with the adversity of the consequences, you folded?  You lied?  Or, you just weren’t completely honest?  You’ve exclaimed and proclaimed how much you trusted them; how great they are; how much you honor them; and when it comes to crunch time, you just don’t speak.  You decide that protecting yourself is more important than being completely honest.   What happened to that trust you so proudly displayed?  What happened to the “I don’t think there’s anything we can’t work through?”  I’ll tell you what happened.  You decided to throw that away the moment you allowed your insecurity to get the better of you.   Y0u allowed the serpent to get into your head, and take you away from what you knew the truth to be.  It’s not that the person you had to tell wouldn’t be upset or angry.  It’s not that there wouldn’t be consequences.  You just didn’t trust that you could make it past those consequences. That right there…is the shame of it all.

Sounds simple right?  It is.  When you are honest with someone, it’s saying that you trust them.  Not with part of yourself, but with your full self.  You are saying that you will give them you, all of you.  Even the parts, that you’re not so sure they will accept or be completely comfortable with.  A lot of times, they’ve already seen you “naked”, and they are still around.  So what’s the point in not being honest?  Exactly…there isn’t.  It sounds so silly to not be real, when you actually take time to think about things.  It’s something I know I have personally had issues with in my life.  I always claim to be giving my self, and then at the moment when I should just say what’s up, I crawl back into the cave of holding back.  I’ve held back far too long.  Even with the people I Love, because I was worried about acceptance.  Here’s the question though:  If someone you “Love” can’t accept you, even with your faults, then the question is, Do they really Love you?  I’ll let you decide what that answer is…

Listen, life is not easy.  It’s full of decisions that have to be made everyday.  Some you’ll get right, and others…well…those are the others…The thing is, the best way to learn to live with things, is well…honesty.  It is trust…You have to learn how to trust yourself, and more importantly God, that what He created is wonderful, and great, and worth being around.  Worth having.   So what’s the moral of this Aesop fable?  Trust Yourself…You’re more than enough…You’re worthy, because God made you that way!!!

More to come…

 

 

 

 

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What I write about is life...The way it changes and affects me every day. Love, heartache, and Mystery in relationships.

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